The port hooked up to the IV |
The port was installed a little over a month ago in a
surgery that I don’t even remember happening. I mean, I remember
being there, in the room (I’m not THAT out of it). I remember them
telling me to move from one bed/table to another and I remember kneeling on the
bed. I don’t remember lying down, counting backwards, the warm
blankie (WHY can’t I remember the warm blankie???), nothing. Just
having a dream and waking up and some nurse asking me some
question. I went back to sleep only to realize she wanted me to wake
up so I COULD LEAVE. After all, that was our marathon day of tests
and procedures and lockdowns and just a plain ol’ party. (Looking
back I wonder if I just made all that up. Nope, couldn’t possibly
have made that up.)
I expected the port surgery to be one little slice, insert,
sewing session and we’re done. Well, for the doctor it was. Five
days after the surgery I wanted to rip the thing out of my chest.
I had my first chemo six days after the port was
installed. Ironically, that was when I came to terms with the
Alien. To access whatever hose the port has, they poked a hole in my
skin. My fine, taught, tender skin. After all the port is almost
half an inch tall, it’s under my skin, by my collar bone area. So my skin
really had to stretch to make room for the thing. Poking that hole in my
skin seemed to give it some breathing room and alleviate the stretch.
The port and scar |
Who knew?
After that, the thing hasn't really bothered me. Most
days I forget it’s even there. Supposedly I’m not supposed to lift
weights over ten pounds, but I can still hoist the case of bottled water from
Costco. I sleep flat on my stomach with no problem and my clothes don’t
bother it.
In other words I’ve stopped bitching about it.
When have any sort of infusion, IV’s, blood draws, whatever,
at least an hour before the appointment, I make sure I put a bunch of lidocane
cream on it, followed by a square of press and seal saran wrap. I sound
like a plastic bag when I walk even though it’s a four by four inch
square. The press and seal sticks pretty well because I’ve put it on and
then driven, shopped, walked all an hour or two before the appointment (gone to
other appointments…). When they go to access it and they come at me with
a one inch needle (I never watch; but Jeff does), I can’t feel the needle
pierce the skin AT ALL. And as long as I taste metal after the nurse puts
it in, we’re good. If I taste no metal or feel a burn, Houston, there’s a
problem and GET IT OUT.
Here’s about as good as picture as I can get. If you
“pledge allegiance to the flag” with your left hand, it’s at the very tip of
your middle finger. You can see the raised bump and you can see three
little raised dots. Maybe those are like the runway lights so the nurse
can see where she’s supposed to aim. Go for the middle.
Please. Don’t miss the middle. Again.
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